Tag: meditation

I Am

a moment in mindfulness

Writing in my head to drown out the exterior noise the world makes. The words pour like the rain just outside my open door allowing the feeling of the cool air to touch my skin. It comforts me to fill my evening in solitude without the need for superficial distractions. Each breath is a moment in time that reminds me I’m alive. My movements become fluid and I am fully immersed in the evening with the rumbling storms it has brought for my entertainment.

Thoughts begin to fade into nothing more than the moment I am in. All fear is gone and I know I am safe. Control no longer is antagonizing as freedom of mind has taken its place. Light is subtle as it’s soft rays bring life to shadows. Empty space feels whole providing room for energy to fill my home. Time has no urgency allowing my mind to be free to think how I feel.

As my eyes grow heavy, sleep is upon me. Falling into a place of unconsciousness temporarily, I can no longer feel the need to carry burden or pain.

Still and calm, I am here right now.

Drifting

In a daze, the haze lifts upon the morning lake. Like glass the water feels smooth on my fingertips as they just touch the surface. They tingle with delight sensing the depth just inches below where the turtles dance. My body finds the strength to pull itself from my board to find myself a drift in the middle of the lake. The only life around me, the sounds of nature and a lone fisherman standing so still I don’t consider him there.

The push of my paddle stroking the water is intoxicating like a wet dream. A three dimensional moment as I peer into the lake and watch as the seaweed sways, look up to the sky as the egret takes flight and breathe deeply this life’s emotional wave.

When I’m here, I’m no where else. When I’m somewhere else, I’m here. When the world tries to swallow me whole, I run to the place I can drift. Where no one can catch me and my mind, body & soul belong to me. Here there is no need to scream or cry. No need to run. The turtles seek nothing other than sunlight. The fisherman cares are gone and my own are too. My mind seeks only what is right in front of me.

Schedules, deadlines and responsibility do not live on the lake. And when they live in the present and I feel so trapped I can’t breathe, my mind takes me to the silky, cool water that sends me only where it chooses to go. Without a sail, I am pulled away from land so I may breathe deeply again. This place I go, the natural world, with no preconceived notions or judgements. It embraces my soul when I’m feeling alone in the world. No longer on an island, this is where I am free, drifting into the water’s embrace.